chemistry of a car crash.

2012-01-20T23:02:00.002+08:00

give me the words and i'll say them like i mean it.

2012-01-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

Darwin Deez - Radar Detector

went for The People's Party last week and it was really awesome. Analog Girl, Unknown Mortal Orchestra and of course, Bombay Bicycle Club & The Naked and Famous were simply amazing. sometimes watching certain bands perform live makes you appreaciate the music even more. doubt that i'm going for this year's laneway festival though, too broke for that.

have been spending alot of nights out with my friends lately. had a chalet with them towards the end of december and it was one the best memories ever. barbeques, staying up, night walks, fighting over the bathroom. living in a house with all of them would be hell. but it was fun, and i've miss it already.

2011-12-21T22:30:00.002+08:00

“What about when someone doesn’t need a shoulder ? What if they need the arms ?”

2011-12-21T22:27:00.001+08:00

- Stephen Chbosky (The Perks of Being a Wallflower)

words and dreams and a million screams.

2011-12-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

Band of Horses - Monsters

it's been over a month since I last posted an entry, a lot has been going on I guess. volunteered for UpToTheSky Festival a couple of weeks back, it was one hell of an event. most of the bands were from all around southeast asia and there were also a few international acts. tenderfist, white shoes and the couples company, great spy experiment, trees and the wild and not forgetting mogwai ! met alot of interesting people there, and made a few friends. awesome event with good music and good company I must say.

besides that, I decided to quit the job that I once so desperately wanted. I don't know, it wasn't how I expected it would be. maybe it's just me. and, I just got back from my mini vacation with the family at Genting Highlands a few days back. it wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be but I did have a good time there just being with the family.

I've been hanging out with my friends more recently, on a regular basis. haha, and it might be pissing my dad off that I'm always out at night. but I'm more than thankful to have them around me again.

2011-11-15T20:29:00.001+08:00

would it make you feel better to watch me as i bleed ?

2011-11-15T20:17:00.001+08:00

Kate Nash - Do-Wah-Doo

back to the old days when all i have time for is work and school. i really wish i didn't have to work at all but i guess life isn't that easy. it's only been a few weeks since i started working again and i am already feeling drained out. i really can't wait for that mini vacation in december, that's all i'm looking forward to for now.

next year is going to be somewhat awesome, at least i'm hoping. besides laneway festival that's coming up in february, there's the vaccines & kasabian, foster the people, the naked and famous, judas priest & lamb of god too ! all of which are in january/february. major dilemma on which to go.

“I wasn’t lonely. I experienced no self-pity. I was just caught up in a life in which I could ﬁnd no meaning.”

2011-11-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

- Charles Bukowski

2011-10-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

there was truth but i just couldn't get it.

2011-10-29T23:23:00.001+08:00

Kill The Complex - Evolution

spent the whole of yesterday watching clips of that 70's show on youtube yesterday up til' 4am until my bb's battery decide to die on me, but it was so worth it, how I miss that show. really had a good laugh.

my right eye is swollen for some reason, I just hope it gets better hopefully by tonight. tmrw is my first day of work and I'm excited but nervous at the same time. first days are always dreadful and awkward. and I really don't wanna have a swollen eye on my first day. gosh. have to go plan an outfit for tmrw and head to bed early tonight. will not be late on my first day.

“Because I wanted to know why someone would work so hard to make someone fall in love with them when they really don’t give a fuck.”

2011-10-28T18:32:00.003+08:00

- The L Word

2011-10-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

i probably still adore you with your hands around my neck.

2011-10-28T18:27:00.000+08:00

Red Goodbye - The Freshman

my oh my, don't I miss listening to this kind of bands. seether, sinch & alter bridge, just to name a few. I really feel like baking cupcakes right now for some reason, I don't know what is up with me and baking. and that cake that my sister and I baked for our friend's birthday turned out nice, they actually liked it. shall go find something to do now. can't wait for sunday !

maybe this is a major slap in the face for me, or that I just should've known better. I don't know.

2011-10-26T20:03:00.002+08:00

youth knows no pain.

2011-10-26T20:01:00.001+08:00

Love Inks - Down And Out

I tried baking a cake and I think my sister is going to kill me when she gets back home. I knew something was wrong when the directions said 'batter' but I got a mixture instead. haha. the cake looks weird but smells nice though, can't wait to start on the icing and frosting. yummmmm. but right now, I shall go get some hot chocolate and a smoke for this lovely weather.

I suddenly miss dressing up and going places and doing things much more productive than what I'm doing now. I need to get my life back together, seriously.

2011-10-21T19:05:00.000+08:00

Laneway Festival Singapore 2012

black-jack-dope-dick-pawn-shop-quick-pick.

2011-10-21T19:02:00.000+08:00

Rose Elinor Dougall - Find Me Out

the line-up for singapore's laneway festival 2012 is out and it's awesome ! woke up to the sound of my bb's facebook notification from st jerome, got all excited for about 5 minutes and went back to bed. lol. pains of being pure at heart, cults, horrors, wu lyf, drums, feist, twin shadow, toro y moi ! how can you not love that ?

okay, should start on my induction course now.

i thought i lost you somewhere, but you were never really ever there at all.

2011-10-21T01:58:00.000+08:00

Lykke Li - Melodies & Desires

was definitely a tad bit nervous just now, and seeing the guy who is extremely comel didn't make it any easier. haha. but at the end of the day, I managed to calm my nerves and everything went well, alhamdulillah. I guess this is what I really need. and it will most certainly help to take my mind off of things.
:]

2011-10-21T01:45:00.000+08:00

please give me a reason to.

“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.”

2011-10-20T01:07:00.000+08:00

- Semisonic (Closing Time)

all in all you're just another brick in the wall.

2011-10-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

Coldplay - Strawberry Swing

today was just one of those days, nothing went my way. had to submit my report and do my presentation for my final assesment in class and when I reached school, I realised that I left my thumbdrive at home. tried to teach mum into sending me an e-mail with the documents I need but that was an epic failure. lol, can't blame her though. had to make my way back home, get my thumbdrive and head back to school. class ended at around 11 so technically, I was in class for only about half an hour or so. such a waste of my time and trip. but I guess I should be thankful that all that is done with for now.

should head to bed now. have an appointment tmrw at town, can't wait for this :]

2011-10-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

the strong men, the children, and even the cowards.

2011-10-17T19:50:00.000+08:00

Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros - Up From Below

took a pill for my migrane about 2 hours ago and now I feel like my head is hurting again. I've decided to start drawing again. I don't know, I guess spending hours and hours online looking at painting/drawings/sketches and even photos just gives me the urge to draw again. maybe I should start now. maybe in a bit. right now I shall go hunt for food.

2011-10-17T19:13:00.002+08:00

someone please tell me why I don't feel this way anymore.

“The saddest people I’ve ever met in life are the ones who don’t care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there’s nothing to make it last.”

2011-10-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

- Nicholas Sparks

maybe this time.

2011-10-11T00:25:00.001+08:00

Arctic Monkeys - 505

god, please give me all the luck in the world tmrw. really pray that everything goes well. hope I don't get lost on my way there. hope that I won't be late.

2011-10-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

you better make sure that you ain't crazy.

2011-10-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

Anomie Belle - Before You Leave Me

have class tmrw and I should be sleeping by now. was about to do my assignments on my laptop just now but I realized that I don't have Microsoft Powerpoint. like what the hell. oh, and playing cluedo is so damn fun and mind-boggling at the same time. turning in now, goodnight all.

the quiet things that no one ever knows.

2011-10-09T01:10:00.000+08:00

Vinnie Ferra - Why Do You Love

fuck everything.

happiness hit her like a train on a track.

2011-10-07T20:38:00.001+08:00

James Morrison - You Give Me Something

so it's friday and I'm home again. not surprised. I guess the weather had a huge part to play today as to why I've decided to stay home and it definitely led to my laziness getting in the way. it's super cold, just got up from an afternoon nap and I'm covered in blankets, drinking warm tea.

something, or someone has been bothering me for a few days now and I don't know what to do about it. or how to tell that person off without offending anyone. it's really been putting me in a very uncomfortable position, literally. how now brown cow.

thinking of watching a movie after this. but which one shall it be.

would any kind soul bake or get me a box a lovely macaroons, please ?
fat hope.

2011-10-07T20:14:00.002+08:00

I hate it when I gently toss my phone onto my bed and it decides to ricochet off 3 walls, knock over a lamp, and hit a cat.

2011-10-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

scared when you feel safe to start again.

2011-10-05T22:27:00.001+08:00

Angus & Julia Stone - Big Jet Plane

someone should seriously knock some sense into my lecturer's brains. okay, he's funny and all but man we seriously don't get what you're saying half of the time. and I'm not trying to sound mean here, but his english is just awful. plain awful. school has been pretty alright, made some new friends. thank god I don't feel so alone anymore or it would have all been just so dreadful.

I came across this upcoming event called 'maad sounds!' a couple of weeks back, was really looking forward to going to this with someone, but that was before everything happened so I guess it's safe to say that it is just another failed plan. I really want to go though, seems really interesting. I thought that 'he' would have liked it too, and it would have been a nice place to snap some photos at. oh well. maybe I'll just head there by myself, nothing wrong with that right. it's actuallypart of a festival held every few months called the MAAD festival. there's a lot to look forward to like the exhibitions and booths but the part that I'm most thrilled about is the live music segment that will feature acts such as Seyra and Cheating Sons. ah must go !

2011-10-05T21:31:00.001+08:00

Date: Friday 7 October 2011
Time: 5 pm - 12 midnight
Venue: Red Dot Design Museum (28 Maxwell Road)
Line-up: Debra (8pm), Cheating Sons (9pm), Evade (10pm), Seyra (11pm)
Admission: Free

fix you.

2011-10-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

when you try your best, but you don't succeed
when you get what you want, but not what you need
when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep,
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone, but it goes to waste
could it be worse ?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try to fix you
- Coldplay

2011-10-04T19:49:00.001+08:00

just because something starts differently, doesn't mean it's worth less.

2011-10-04T19:36:00.000+08:00

Peter Bjorn and John - Poor Cow

who knew that listening to Peter Bjorn and John's whole album while doing your assignments actually hepls. thank god for good music. I managed to complete my assignments which are due tmrw in an hour. no distrations whatsoever. it's tuesday ! if it was a few months back, i'd be having movie night with that someone but since that is history, i'm contemplating whether or not I should meet up with some friends at cuscaden tonight.

2011-10-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

“Not that our lives have been filled with extraordinary tragedy or that our hearts are filled with sorrow, it’s just that crying is comfort for the soul.”

2011-10-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

— The Crying Chair, Maria Marcia Lee Norwood

like two trains on one track bound for a crash.

2011-10-03T21:53:00.002+08:00

Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter

I think of you, and I think of her. and it makes me realize how perfect the two of you would be together. she's smart, so are you. she's pretty, she's nice, she's perfect. no wonder you couldn't stop thinking about her. no wonder she never left your mind. I was never enough for you. not smart enough, not pretty enough, not good enough. sucks, because you were perfect and enough for me, but I wasn't even close. I hope you tell her how you feel. I hope she loves you as much as I did.

2011-10-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

dear pacific day, won't you take me away ?

2011-10-03T00:20:00.002+08:00

I've decided to start posting/writing here again. I stopped for over a year or so, and I guess that I just needed somewhere to let out all my feelings and thoughts. I kept all my previous posts as memories cause I couldn't get myself to delete them but none of which are visible on this page. I just need something new, like a fresh start maybe ?